As I stood by Blake, it was like I was having this horrible nightmare and I just wanted to wake up. He looked so helpless. I held his hand and prayed to the Lord that he would give him strength and let him live because he had a great story to tell.
We were only allowed to stay with him for just a few minutes…I hated to leave him but, we had to let the doctors and nurses do what they needed to do to help him. When we walked out into the waiting room…we had so many friends waiting. God knew how much we needed them and he made it possible for them to be there. We all got in a circle and prayed. This was the first of many circle prayers. Derek had called his finance’Sarah and she arrived. I’ll never forget her hugging me and staying with us. God was working. We were able to see Blake a few more times that evening. Each time whispering to him “fight baby and please don’t leave me”…we had friends that stayed with us through the night and matter of fact, never ever left our side. Around 12:00 the nurse came in and needed a signature for blood transfusions. She talked to us about it…I really didn’t understand.
At around 3:30 am, the nurse came and got Randy, Derek and myself. She said Blake is not doing well. When we entered his room. His blood pressure was dropping. And then it happened…he coded for the 13th time. They asked us to leave the room so they could work. We went in the hallway and I cried out to the Lord, please don’t take my baby. Please Lord, please hear my prayer. We were taken down the hall to a room to wait. Randy Wade, our pastor was there and my friend Janna. Randy asked what do you want me to do. He had his Bible and I simply said, just read. I could feel my faith slowly leaving. I was giving up. I wanted my momma so bad. She was 9 hours away. I remember Derek telling Randy and I “I love you” over and over. We were terrified!!
The door opened and the nurse stood there, I just knew he was gone. She said we have him back. I promised God right then and there my faith in Him would never waiver again, no matter what happened. I would trust Him completely…