What is my reaction when God says not now or even no to my prayers? This question has been on my mind for the last few weeks. As Christians we often think our life should be easy and without hardships. Not true…we live in a broken world which hardships are everywhere. Satan preys on us when we are broken. He wants to win….that’s when I just have to scream at him because only God gets glory!! Only God wins!!
I know when my Blake was in the hospital my prayer for him was to live. God answered that prayer. Blake lived for 6 days. I remember praying for complete healing….I knew God could perform miracles!! I wanted one of those miracles soooo bad!! I went into Blake’s room on Sunday which was day 4 and I prayed the hardest prayer that I’ve ever in my life prayer…I prayed for His will not mine. Complete submission….I didn’t want Blake to die, but at the same time I didn’t want him to suffer.
God took Blake home on Tuesay, May 15, 2012. That was His will. The question is “Did I stop believing that God answers prayers? No, it has made my faith in Him stronger because I trust him…he never makes mistakes!!”
I still pray and still want the answer to be yes…but, sometimes it’s not. Do I stop praying? No I don’t! He knows what’s best, even if I don’t really like it at the time.
I think my prayers have changed a little now. I always ask him for what I want because He knows my heart…but I always say no matter what I want Your will.
Never let your will become more important than His will. If we don’t get the answer we want, that’s our time to really lean in to Him. He has a plan for each of us…we just have to trust Him.

“Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.” James 1:2-3

Finding JOY in my Journey…