The summer of 2012 ended and fall was here. I still was struggling to just get through the day. The hole inside my heart was so large, I was missing a part of me. How was I suppose to live to rest of my life without my son? It was not suppose to happen this way. I was suppose to go to Heaven first. I was truly broken and didn’t think I could ever be mended. I was just so sad. When I did laugh or smile it would only last for a moment because I would think I was doing something wrong. I thought to myself ” I will never be happy again”.

A sweet friend of mine, Janice, invited me one October morning to meet her to go shopping and have lunch. So, I said yes and got myself ready and headed to Rockwall. I remember as I crossed Lake Ray Hubbard praying this prayer “Lord, I know I won’t be happy for a very long time, but I miss my JOY. Please give me just a little JOY back in my life.” After I prayed, the sun or should I say “Son” started shining so bright in my car. This light was so comforting, it was so bright and warm. I felt a peace that I had not felt in a very long time. I had no idea what was fixing to start happening in my life.