Summer of 2012 is somewhat of a blur. I was numb. Breathing was such a hard thing. Sleeping, just didn’t happen at night anymore. I could nap a little during the day, but nighttime was horrible. My mind would literally go wild. I thought at one time that I was going to loose my mind. Very scarey!!

I remember talking to my sweet Randy about Blake and saying to him “I know he’s in Heaven, but I just need to know he’s ok.” I started wondering where Heaven really was. Is it up, far beyond the stars in the sky or is it all around us? As a momma, I just needed to know where my son was. Every momma wants to know where their babies are at all times, no matter what the circumstance.

In August that year, I got a message from a friend who I hadn’t heard from in a while. Her name was Pam. I waited a week to call her back. I figured she had just heard about Blake and I had to build myself up to talk about it. I called her, and yes she had heard about Blake’s death. She told me I have something to tell you, but I don’t want to upset you. I told her I’m always upset, I would be fine, not knowing what she was about to tell me. She began her story, it was about a dream she had just a couple of weeks before she heard about Blake. Her daddy had past away I believe 20 years prior to this dream. She told me that in her dream, her daddy was sitting at her kitchen table and told her “he’s ok”. She said she asked him, “who’s ok?” Again, he said the same words, “he’s ok.” Then, she turned around and he was gone. I’m sitting here listening to her and I get the strangest peace…she said I think he was talking about Blake. I replied, I know he was. I told her about my conversations with Randy about that very question “is he ok”. This was a direct answer from God for me…may sound crazy to you, but it was all I needed. God had answered my prayer…my sweet boy was ok!! I thanked Pam for callng me, she had truly giving me a great blessing for telling me about her dream.