After Derek and Sarah moved to North Carolina, my world just seemed so strange. I was home a lot by myself. As a Christian, I had never felt satan so close. He would whisper in my ear “the what ifs”. Satan would literally terrorize me. My friend Janna would tell me over and over “God is not the author of confusion, satan is”. This made sense, but I still had to fight constantly to just breath.

I remember Vickie told me one day to “just scream at satan”. This was awesome. I would actually scream out loud to satan…”you do not win”. I can’t even count the times I’ve hollared at him!! This is so refreshing. It might seem a little wild, but it works.

One day, satan just would not leave me alone. I prayed and screamed all day long. When Randy got home from work that evening, I told him I had had a horrible day. I had fought satan all day long. I remember telling him “satan is in our house and we have to pray him out”. He probably thought I was crazy but, my sweet husband took my hand and we went in every room of our house and prayed satan out. I was physically exhausted. That’s what satan does…he drains you…but, if you allow JESUS in, He fills you. He fills you with His spirit and makes you whole, not broken!!!

Still, some days are screaming days…but, it’s ok. I remind myself that this world is not my home. I’m only here for a little while. One day, when my work is done here on earth I will get my reward which is HEAVEN. I can’t wait to see what I’ve only imagined…