The days after Blake’s death are some what foggy. I think that is part of God’s protection for me. We had so many ups and downs. When you bury a child, it just seems so wrong. It’s not suppose to happen that way. Your children are suppose to bury you. That’s how it would be if we lived in a perfect world…but, our world is broken.
In my mind, I think satan asked God “how do you think YOUR people are going to act now. Are they still going to think you are such a great God?” The answer to that is YES!! We serve a mighty God that is so awesome and great!! God did not take Blake to punish us, but it was Blake’s reward. Blake had accomplished so much in his 20 years and 8 months on this earth. He truly was a child of the one true King!! He loved the Lord and lived his life accordingly. I only hope I can live my life as pleasing to the Lord as Blake did. Sometimes the only thing that keeps me going is I can’t disappoint Blake. I always want him to say “look at my momma, she never gave up.” I would never want to disappoint him.
One of the most awesome things we said during the 6 days was “God is God”. We later found out that on Blake’s Facebook under his religion those were his exact words “God is God”. Such a great kiddo. I sure miss that sweet boy of mine. He was a gift to me. I’m so thankful that God chose me, of all the mommas in the world, to be his momma. He taught me so much!!
There is so much that I don’t remember about those 6 days before Blake died and even the days after. I would love it if some of you would share your memories of those days. I need you to fill in the blanks. I would like to know what your prespective was…